"giddy mood"

moopie. ie.

im going to a jacks mannequin ( well atleast i think its a jacks mannequin) concert tomorrow with liza and we are both afraid that its a shared concert with O.A.R. 
this could result into a major problem. We have less than 21 hours to figure this shit out. 

I also just got back from marthas vineyard. it was...AMAZING as always. 






anyone wanna go back with me from august 8 to 15?




leave me some comments. please.

okay so liza and i were standing in newbury comics looking at funny buttons like, oi! and i speak sarcasm as a second language and your just jealous because the little voices are talking to me not you, and there was this guy looking at the other set of buttons.
about 5 minutes later my phone rang and it was my dad, the guy walked away and came back and said "excuse me" and i put my dad on hold and the rest consisted of something like:

Hi, i met this hungarian girl and now shes back home and we hung out for like a week and we have been e-mailing and stuff and then i got a card. A postcard, and a book. And i just don't know what to send her. Should i send her a red sox hat? I mean she sent me a book and thats like really thoughtful and like a hat isn't that personal. But what do you guys think?
   -cool slash weird guy

Um...i dont know, what does she like? I mean if it were me i would like it and it reminds her of her trip here. But i dont really know.
   -me

Ok, well if you guys think of anything just find me in the store and tell me.
  -cool slash weird guy

Ok.
  -me

After he walked away liza and i looked at each other like woah. And then i put my dad off hold and he had heard of everything and i was like hi dad. And he was like whats his problem?

it was really funny. That guy seemed really nice though. When he said "I met this hungarian girl" i wanted to say "Oh cool, i met this ukrainian boy"

yeah. fun times, fun times.

Since when can you not take hilarious pictures in newbury comics?

i have been begging my parents for panic! at the disco tickets for 3 days and i think they're coming around...
july 30 in san fransisco
but then we also have to go there for sept. 3 for a wedding....
they dont wanna make two trips there...
i really hope they say i can go. i need to buy tickets online like today!

my last post...yeah kinda depressing
im fine.
but i just found out that i will never have a british boyfriend because apparently there is no one hotter there than sam.
im not becoming a mormon or muslim. <-- sam u get it

i just listened to
Calm Before The Storm
the demo.
by fall out boy
and it made me laugh

so now im really happy :)

my life is so complicated right now.
i hate it.

things i want to do this summer:
go to puerto rico
go to new york
meet david and noor
go to europe
get a good job
quit my current job
hang out with my friends

things i probably wont do this summer:
go to puerto rico
go to new york
meet david and noor
go to europe
get a new job
quit my current job

I'm cool with just hanging out with my friends though.
recently my life has been a total disaster and i really need some help here.
there are too many friend problems to count and there are some personal problems and i just
dont know that i wanna deal with them right now because at the moment they are bringing down my summer.

I recently was asked if i wanted to hop a plane to puerto rico next week for a week and if it were any other situation i would probably say yes. but i mean my friends need me here and i can't communicate with them while im there, well not as easily. And i wont see my friends as much and i think its just my friends that are holding me back. I want to indulge myself and i haven't yet learned to put myself first and thats been holding me back from a lot of things. I just don't know what to do...

help?

or do i need to learn it on my own?

I'm friends with him again....
but his girlfriend, my best friend im not so sure about,
yet.

why is it that the one boy i like, the one boy that makes me smile, makes me laugh also makes me cry?
why is the one boy that i like funny, nice, cute and unavailable?
why is the boy that i like a really good friend of mine?
why am i putting myself through this sorrow?
why didn't i just tell him when he asked?
why can't i be honest with him.....
the sad thing is the answer to all these questions
i know.
but the worst part is
i can't do anything about it.


i'll just have to wait and see what happens....

why does this always seem to happen?

never tell a pyro to go burn
because they most likely will
never tell an addicted drug user to go overdose
because they most likely will
never tell your best friend a secret
cuz it will most likely spill
never ask of something you never wanted in the first place
because you'll most likely get it
never wonder if i hate you
because i'll always love you
never doubt that we'll meet
because we most likely will
never ask for forgivness
after you put me through hell
never ask me to be someone im not
because i never will.

All i did was try to help
And now im hated by someone i don't even know.
How does that work?

I'm sorry
I truly
deeply
sincerely
apologize.

I hate this
this whole situation
its insane


immaturity gets the best of all of us sometimes.

    Okay so basically one of my best friends, her foreign boyfriend and her cousin are fighting and its not right. AT ALL. It's insane the cousin who will remain unnamed lets just call her jeanae met this boy (the foreign boyfriend) lets call him p33n, about 4 years ago, but hes 4 years older than her. So he "fancied" her for awhile and now she is completely and utterly obsessed with p33n and there is nothing to do, he lives in England and she lives in New York. And now its 4 years later and he is 18, a footballer and she is 13 with a burning passion to be with this british p33n. But jenna made the mistake of giving her 14 year old cousin, liza, p33ns screen name and after about 4 months they have talked a lot and got to know each other and now they are dating but neither p33n nor liza told jeanae that they were dating, and she just recently found out and is furious. Liza is hurt and feels really bad and like she wants to cry, apparently she didnt leave her concious in the bible today. Well now jeanae and p33n "hate" each other but turns out jeanae always bothered p33n anyway and now jeanae really want to break them up because its "the best thing for them" and keeps telling her cousin that p33n has been lying and that he doesn't really feel this way. WELL she is really just jealous and won't admit it, its okay to like the same person for example my friend and i like the same boy and if she went out with him i would be jealous but i would also be happy that my two friends whom i love are together. BUT JEANAE JUST DOESNT GET IT. Seriously jeanae you know who you are and if you are reading this you have to understand your cousin is sorry and has sacrificed a lot this year and she loves p33n and you need to just understand that you opened the door and this was a possibility from the start. Liza has always been nice to you and loves you very much and is on the verge of tears because she hurt you and shes sorry but she is in love and you trying to break them up is a bad thing to do. dont let your jealousy take control, you love your cousin and you love p33n. But they are in love with each other, you met him once, you haven't seen him since. It's been 4 years, he has changed, he loves your cousins very much and has made her extremely happy. You should be happy for her and not bring her down. I will now quote high school musical. "If its something that you love to do then we should be supporting you not bring you down." so basically, get over yourself, your making everyone feel like crap and you need to understand that this isn't about you anymore and it never really was. They don't need your permission, you are just making everyone feel worse and everything extremely complicated. You need to understand that I nor them mean to hurt you but you need to be smacked in the face by these words and realize what you are doing. You are making liza cry, you and p33n are in a fight. Look jealousy happens a lot of things you want you wont get, but seriously you need to try and stay calm because you are making everyone else feel like crap. I'm sorry your hurting but they love each other. You really need to try and understand no one wants to hurt you just you need to be more open and hopeful..... :(


to be continued....


PLEASE LEAVE COMMENTS ON HOW TO RESOLVE THIS AND ADVICE FOR P33N, LIZA AND JEANAE.

i have been in a really sad mood lately and i dont know why. I'm not sure if im stressed because i have a history final project due thursday or maybe its because i have my R+J paper due june 15. I dont really think its school related...All i know is that i have a lot on my mind and it's something that i can't get off my mind. Life is complicated in general, mine just is a little more complicated than most.

1. Who are you, what's our relationship?
2. How long have you known me?
3. Tell me one thing you think is good about me?
4. When you first saw me, what was your impression?
5. Have you ever had a crush on me?
6. Describe me in 3 words?
7. Do you think I'm hot?
8. How would you describe me to someone?
9. Would you ever date me? If you have would u do it again?
10. What do you like most about me?
11. If we could spend a day together what would we do?
12. Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years?
13. What reminds you of me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Are you going to put this on your myspace/livejournal and see what I say about you?
16. Do I cross your mind at least once a day?

please answer in a comment :)

My long weekend was...interesting and...long.

On Friday i had work, fun right? no. I had a party and it was a Russian party, now i have nothing against russians but when you can't communicate with them then that gets a little irritating and like you want to throw yourself out of a window. Except the kitchen i worked in didn't have any windows and it was really hot. Depressing right? yeah. After the parties were done liza and i were dying with dishes. but we left early and then we went to a family friends house...it was a joke. the guy doesnt like fall out boy, it was insane. He dissed Fall Out Boy saying they had bad songs and that they couldn't sing. Don't insult the band that i love while playing against me in Halo. I will kick your ass, i will hunt you down. Basically find you and kill you.

Saturday was fantabulous. I wanted to go to the concert in boston but then i decided not to......yeah then Emma and I hung out from around 11 to 2:30 then we went to Liza's house and it was extremely fun. Everyone had a great time except that emma hurt her ass on the swing and she should sue and get millions of dollars. But yeah otherwise it was good. Then we left lizas around 11:30? And we went to Emma's house and then we laughed a lot and looked at clothes and then we went to bed.

Sunday morning emma and i haden't even left her room yet and we were just going insane. We were either extremely tired or way to awake. We sang " And there was MUSIC and there were WONDERFUL ROSES they TELL ME in sweet FrAgRaNt MeaDOws." We were high on something, we sang it so strangly and we were laughing hysterically. It was fun. Then we had breakfast with her family and that was fun. Then my mom came and my mom, dad and i drove to Maine for the day. Why? I dont know, we felt like getting out of Massachusetts for awhile. Then we get home and watched a movie called DUMA. It was really good. Sad but good.

Monday i pretty much watched marathons, CSI and Law and Order: CI, i really wasn't feeling well so i just laid on the couch.

But enough about me how was your weekend?

My shoulder hurts somuch. I'm still not feeling great, im going to go rest/ listen to Fall Out Boy or MCS.
Jeanae White dating pete wentz? whats the world coming to?

For the first time. Since i have had his screen name. Pete Wentz has not been away and I built up the courage to send him a message.

Since we missed a good 14 ish titles yesterday, I added some to the end.

You don't have to read it again. But they're all there. I think.

last saturday-
A little less 16 Candles a little more Touch Me is like Chicago which is so two years ago. I was talking to P3t3 and he was like "nobody puts baby in the corner" and i was like "*sigh* of all the gin joints in all the world" and he was like "xoxo" and i was like "well, get busy living or get busy dying, do your part to save the scene and stop going to shows." and then we exchanged stories of when he was homesick at spacecamp and when i was sending postcards from a planecrash, which was like 7 minutes in heaven. and then we got out the champagne for our real friends, but our sham friends got real pain. we were discussing the pros and cons of breathing, and this guy came up. and then p3t3 goes "tell that mick he just made my list of things to do today". then our friends broke up, and one of them was all like "my heart is the worst kind of weapon" and we said "aww sugar are you going down?" and then we all dance dance'd and everything was dead on arrival. but that was just the calm before the storm, because snitches and talkers get stiches and walkers. and then jewseph got really pissed and said "i've got a dark alley and a bad idea that says you should shut your mouth". they called it the sophmore slump, or comeback of the year. one of the two. our lawyer made us change the name of the song so we wouldn't get sued. andy was all depressed, he had too much to drink, and he was all like "it's either the music or the misery! Roxanne! where are you!?" and then he cried. it was sad. sort of like the grenade jumper next door. he's the patron saint of liars and cheats, and he comes to town every grand theft autumn.and pete was like "austin, we have a problem." and p3t3 was like "austin, we have a problem" and then looked up and said "wow it's star 67!!" even though we were inside. we think he was drunk. but he told us "it's not a side effect of the cocaine, i am thinking it must be love." and then patrick saw someone he knew and didn't like and said "i liked you a lot better before you became a fucking myspace whore". he thought the hand of god was with him. and when she slapped him he said "we don't take hits, we write them" and she told him he was part of the fellowship of the nerd. their fight was short, fast and loud. it didnt win best fight, but it got an honorable mention. after that, p3t3 walked up to this girl and was all like "you look pretty in punk" and she scoffed at him and said "save your generation" but p3t3 just replied with "i dont feel like growing up" to which she replied "you should start today". then patrick walked by and said sadly "love will tear us apart" and then p3t3 was like "parker lewis can't lose, but i'm going to give it my best shot" to which andy sighed and said "the world's not waiting for 5 tired boys and a broken down van" and p3t3 was like "yeah but we can still go see moving pictures" i was like "you mean movies" and he was like "swichblades and infidelity, what's the difference?"

i slept with someone in fall out boy and all i got was this stupid song written about me. now i'm reinventing the wheel to run myself over.